I just looked through an old friend’s graduation pictures today. That friend use to be my closest friend. She was like a sister, someone I trusted everything with and went out of my way to hang out with even when I didn’t know how to drive. We’re no longer close anymore because she started developing jealousy over me and continuously tried to compete with me, which caused me to lose trust in her. When I looked at those pictures, at one hand I wish we were back to how it was before and I’d be there supporting her, but I really can’t get myself to like or trust her like before. In any relationship regardless if it’s friendship or a love relationship, trust is the key part, and if the trust is broken it’s like a permanent scar. I’ve tried so many times to accept her into my life again but I can’t because every time I see her I sense this tension and her desire to compete. I miss what we use to have but life is a one way road and there’s no way to turn back.

Honestly I’m not sure why I’m up at this hour writing this but I just had to write out all my thoughts.

Yours truly,
Rose